- Trying to maintain a presence here.
- June 13th, 2016
I'm aware that if I wait for something interesting to happen to me to post about, I will never post, but it's a hard reflex to get over - that "oh, that's not interesting enough to post about" internal commentary is persuasive!
In the interests of posting anyway, here's a general life update.
1. I am considering buying a house! I have a bunch of deep and divided feelings about this, but it would be a way to get out from under my parents' roof at long last and have a space to pursue the things I want to pursue. I keep telling myself, It doesn't have to be permanent! People buy houses and then move away all the time! You're not creating a permanent tie to this place!
2. In the interests of the above, I have applied for a loan. It's brought home to me how casual (and lazy) I am about monetary things; I had to provide bank statements from my checking and savings accounts, and I realized that I don't really have statements! I set them up for e-delivery years ago, and pretty much never looked at them again. I mark all my "You Have A New Document From USAA" emails as read without ever following the link.
I certainly look at my actual accounts! But statements, not so much, and I don't save them anywhere on my own computer or balance the checkbook. I'm very blessed that I can be this casual about money matters, but it's also partly a frustration issue - I have enough money that I could probably buy any one single material item I wanted, but I have nowhere near enough money to buy any one single goal that I want (e.g. a house, a year off work, a relocation to the city of my choice, an elective surgery). Looking at my bank statements is an unpleasant reminder of the gap that yawns between "well-off for a poor person" and "able to control my own life."
3. Speaking of material items, I have gotten lucky enough to add several things to my Windstone collection! Including an item that I wanted on Ebay but, reluctantly, didn't bid on. (So many beautiful things deserve a house to be displayed in! Leading back to the first point of this post.)